Seriously...Where Does the Time Go???

Lately, time has been getting away from me. I have so little free time anymore, that, when I find myself home with nothing on the schedule to do, I literally DO NOTHING. Lately too, I've been worried that time is just passing me by...that one day, I'll wake up and realize that I missed out on so many things that I should've been paying attention to. Because of that, I've been really trying to be more "in the moment" when I'm home....talking to the kids, spending time in the same part of the house as my family, that sort of thing. As much as I would love to hide myself away in solitude...sounds wonderful...I know that if I do that, I will one day regret doing that. That I will have missed sooooo much.

But it would still be nice to have one block of time away from the worries and responsibilities of "now", preferably somewhere warm and sunshiney and carefree...where I can do nothing away from the world guilt-free.

Know where that would be? Let me know if you do. ;o)

The last couple of weeks have just been so overwhelming! There is a light at the end of the tunnel, though. In Stars club (at church), I have 4 girls who could potentially be Honor Stars this year...depending on whether or not they can pass the testing. (The last test is tonight!!!)

Just for a point of reference, I have 2 free evenings during the week that I can spend at home relaxing or whatever.

For the last 3-4 weeks, I have been meeting with these girls on Friday evenings to work on their memory work...things they will need to know to pass the Honor Star test.

That leaves me 1 free evening...oh wait, there's more...

The last 2 weeks, I have also met with them on Tuesday evenings. In fact, I was going to meet with them last night, but I had to cancel. We've had some things going on in our house this week that have just unsettled our usual routine, so I needed some quiet "me time". Muftak had a meeting and Aravis and Nitro were both working, so I had the house to myself for a couple of hours. The only one demanding any attention was Tobi, but she's easy. As long as I let her snuggle up in the blanket next to me, she's fine.

I've also been battling a cold for the last week and a half. I think it's finally on the downward slide, but sheesh. It's taken long enough to get over it! This one has been particularly bad. Sunday morning, the entire right side of my face hurt from all the pressure in my sinuses. I took some Sudafed and went back to bed...and slept until almost 11! (I never sleep that late.) I guess I needed it.

I prayed for a friend the night before last who is going through a lot of stress and uncertainty right now. One of the things I prayed was that, with each breath she inhales, she would breathe in more of the Holy Spirit and, with each breath she exhales, she would breathe out all the "yuck". Not real eloquent or deeply theological, but it's the "picture" that I had while I was praying for her.

The best thing is that, when we pray for others, God uses some of those same things for us. Because, ever since then, that has been at the forefront of my mind. When I think about how tired I am...or how much I need some time off, I keep thinking that I'm breathing in His Spirit with each breath and breathing out all that "yuck"...the exhaustion and worry... It's been so encouraging.

He really is my rest. I guess I just needed to be reminded of that. :o)